redemption- I'm gonna die soon.
God will have his vengeance on me.
I don't care. he can blow me.
There's no more misery that one can be put through than this life.
I am a man at the end of his line, who is staring the oncoming train in the face but still grabbing his balls and saying, "fuck you, you won't get me."
Whether or not I get out of the way of the train is not important.